In 1997, I was told I had an aggressive form of cervical cancer that had gone from nothing (I had my regular pap smears) in the January to CIN3 by August the same year, this required an operation that removed 95% of my cervix.  In addition to this I was told at the time I had moderate to severe endometriosis and I had some cysts around my ovaries.  But the good news was that my tubes were fine!!
Anyway, I was told that my chances of conceiving were slim to none, so I best get used to the idea that I would never have children.  This was not an idea I ever really wanted to think about.  At 26 I was being told I would potentially never had children.  This to me was devastating, I truely thought that my purpose in life was to be a wife and mother and at 26 I was neither of these and was being told by drs that I would more than likely never be a mother.
Then things changed for me I had a chance phone call with my childhood sweetheart, he was a gorgeous man but we were never able to get things together when we were younger.  He was seperated from his wife (he left me for her at one stage), and would like to see me.  So we had dinner, he had a gorgeous 18mth old son, to make a long story short, we got back together and were planning a future together.  We both thought it was like going home.  Sadly, he was killed in a workplace accident in 1998, thus ending that dream.
Throughout all of this I had a wonderful friend whom I often turned to when things were down.  He was always there in the background.  My friends were starting to say to me what about Andrew.  I thought of him as my best friend.  Anyway, slowly one thing led to another and we starting dating.  But very early on I made it clear that my chances of children were in the words of the drs impossible and IVF was not something that I wanted to consider (knowing my personality I would get obssesed), he was ok with this and we married January 2001.  It was a beautiful day, glorious weather, surrounded by family and friends we married.
The plan for us was to stay living in my parents house while I finished my teaching degree.  Well someone else had other plans for us….

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